It.

I keep having dreams. it seems that when he's not around i dream of him more dan i do when he's around. weird it is.

well, i miss him:( ALOT. my final's are next week and there are tons of things still left undone. I might or not be able to make it. we'll see.

one thing's for sure. MR TAY IS COMING BACK NEXT WEEK!!!!

end of fyp and return of my baby:DDDD woo~

All I wanna say is I LOVE U

For all those times you stood by me

For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

hokes pokes

darn blogspot. pictures are forever nver positioned wheereevr i want. always above the words. and i had wanted to "cut" and "paste" . turned out, i accidentally clicked on "copy" after i "cut" . now i have to retype -.-

well, as i was saying. i have a huge ass pimple jus right under my right nostril. and its hurts like a bitch cos it swollen and i burst it yesterday. the problem is even jus as the pus comes out and watever excess, it goes back to it swollen state again and still hurts like freakkk.. nyways, i continued bursting until now the swelling subsided. dou it still hurst cos i practically peeled the nose skin. i feeel better than a huge swell jus right under my nose. hees..

nyways, sat night was fun so here are the pics for u darlig:)

acting seh. hees.

happily kena raped:D

believe or not..my mafia crying!

i have to say, lt looks like snoopy. pls dun kill me!

i got cheated by a certain blogshop i bought my dress from recently. totally different from wat i had expected and the worse case was i was anticipating the arrival of my goods cos i kept asking uncle eddy if there was any mail for me. darn it...

so.. i did a little altering myself. and its like a top now rather. i mus say i do have wat it takes to be a good wife. cooking, tailoring, washing... etc etc. nothing unbeatable. hahaha.

BEFORE: totally not like dat lo. the reall thing looks like pajamas.

TADA! : my perfect creation. still looks like pajamas but better!

jean uh jean.. i am simply perfect! :p

aiya, very hard to elaborate the alteration i did cos blogspot simply have no features for animation. one word- dense!

till dan, miss u darling, loves**

hot hot hot

afternoon to u darling:)

yesterday was an awesome day out with lt, lz, and jy. its been a long time since i hung out with them. we went shopping for gifts and dicussing ideas for the party. Its gonna be a fun weekend for the next. darling. dun worry abt me being bored at all. it seems i am having loads of fun.. not dat i am having dun while u are toiling away in wallaby. jus dat, i am thankful to have wonderful fun friends to be with and keep me company while u aren't around. i cant wait for u to be back. jus months ago i keep dreading the month of nov because u're gonna be away. right now, it doesnt seem so bad after all. and u know wat miri said? she said she'll be my company till u return. something like a female version of u. but i said no, cos she is not stupid enough to be u. haha!

kiddng la, dun be mad okie. jus dat u jus being u is all dat i love. despite the stupidity, sturboness and all the thick hide u have u'll always be my baby:)))

also, i am having a breakout i think, darn lots of pimples on my face!!!! hees. nyways, i need to go do my laundry now and i'm meeting sally and fern around 4 at bugis laters. and we'll be shopping for retro ideas later! cooolll...

till dan, love u take care and call me sooon. i'll be holdin on to my phone dearly cos i dun wanna be stupid like the last time to have missed ur call. cos' every single opportunity i get to hear ur voice is like gold to me!!!

babbbyyyy...!

emo start

i woke up with a start this morning. suddenly remembering he is leaving already. I keeep telling myself i am not sad or feeling down at all while he is away. and i jus told sally i do not feel sad at all now he is not around with me.

the truth is i am tearing while i am writing this. i miss him already. thinking how he wouldnt be here anymore replying my msgs or call me let alone be by my side. The countless times he used to say "I LOVE U" would be in all our conversations.

" darling, u know i love u right "

i know i know i know! its like always deeply etched in heart and i it gives me the fluttering feeling whenever u said it because i know how much i mean to u. and u mean the world to me too baby..

my tiong baru came to look for me just now. he hinted dat he knew i wasnt around and dat he said i am not putting my heart into my project. and he asked me why i didnt come yesterday.

i blurted that because my sister got married yesterday. i was like? why the hell did i ever tot of dat. fucking stupid excuse. he echoed my words like "huh?" o no.

and he said to keep my nose clean for the next few weeks cos i think he'll be watching me more closely plus he said i cant have the habit of not coming to schl without informing him. he said wat if i go to work and i am like dis? dun worry, i worked before so definitely i'll be different. working and studying have different motivations yer'know?

well, i know i am wrong i cant be like this.

wells, now dat u are away i promise to put my heart and soul wholly to my fyp. regardless of how shitty, boring, frustrating it is/he/she. no mentioning of names so dun ask me to report to the course manager's office alright?

plus, i dun like it/she/HIM. i think i am subjected to the likes and hates of somebody not dat it is an insult right. I dun like onions, would it be like an insult? lame right. cos its a no?!

alright, today is a friday and i cant wait for 5.30 to strike.

till than, hasta la vista baby!

darling baby, I"ll miss u like a crazy bitch. call me soon okie?

loves & huggies*

yesterday no more.

u gonna go soon on friday...

it felt like u had jus booked out on thursday yesterday onli. wells, i wished we had more time to do more things together. despite jus napping for the whole day on saturday, i love it. cos when i am in ur arms sleeping, it jus makes my dreams sweeter(:

I promise i'll be good and wait for u till u return. though i always say "go, dun come back". the truth is, i cant wait for u to be back again. i'll take dis opportunity while u are away to make time for myself as well as for my friends.

u asked me why cant i write a diary for u while u are away jus like ur friend's gf. simply because, i have a blog and writting is a freakking hardcore chore, esp when my handwrtting sucks. I hope u bring all the hand written cards i made u, so u could think of me while u are there and feel as dou i am with u.

dis weekend would be programmless because i have decided to jus bum at home and complete my fyp reports. i'll upload pictures while i can, dun worry abt me being bored while u are not around. me being me will jus do watever i am good at.

eat and sleep.

hees.. I LOVE U BABY<3>

I LOVE U

part of my life remains, stationary. though everyday would be boring.

I wan u to know wat i am every single day.

try as i will, make known how i shall live the days without u.

by doin this, it makes me feel u are with me, listening and comforting my every emotions because i need u.

Even if u mus go, i'll miss u even more.